Looking at my DA page, it says "graphic designer" and yet I see very little to do with design in my gallery. Been in a slump lately I suppose as I don't "feel it" any more, at least in terms of general designing. Probably because I'm finally trying to see what road lies ahead of me, thinking constantly "What would I love to do for a living?"

The truth is that I've known the answer ever since I've been a little kid but for a multitude of reasons: social pressures, social expectations, self doubt, etc. I keep running away from that answer thinking that I won't be able to go that way and try to take another path which deep down I know isn't the right one.

I've always wanted to work on video games. Dreams are flexible of course and the degree of involvement with a game I could work in isn't as important as the fact that I could get to work on an industry that I've always had a lot of passion for, the most passion out of all the things I enjoy doing (music, design, etc, games always comes out on top in the end).

This realization probably had something to do with a blog I recently stumbled upon and read about the author who deals with many topics on game design. [link]
I've always wanted to find this apparently magical connection between Graphic Design and Game Design and then I read about this person who also studied design and does game design for a living. His final message on the "about" page left me with a very strong message: "I enjoy solving problems; I enjoy design." And that's something that I've always loved to do, I love to find ways to solve a problem and that's exactly what design tries to do.

So after wanting to smack myself upside the head for making such an obvious realization, what next? A good first step would probably be to actually see how my skills as a designer can be taken onto the realm of gaming, and looking at Masters degrees in schools in the UK that take designers like myself and help teach about game-making and now I feel I should seriously look into that.

So now that I'm not denying myself and trying to find my way forward with what I'd like to do for a living, wish me luck as I try to follow that dream and see where it can take me.

Yes, it's so awesome it merits breaking the laws of punctuation and earns a double exclamation mark.

With only one phrase spoken by the marine seen in the gorgeous (as if we could expect anything else from Blizzard?), "Hell... it's about time", he sums up very well the way fans have felt and the joy we're feeling now that the game's finally getting a sequel. It helps that it all looks butt-kickingly beautiful to boot.

Oh Blizzard, you had me at "hello..." , or was that "hell..."?

Can't wait to know more of the game, it'll be out till 2008 most likely, and I don't care cuz I jsut want this to be good. They proved 3D could do well for Blizzard's RTS games, now it's blizzard's turn, and this time around everything's turning out more gorgeous than the somehat-ugly-and-now-dated Warcraft 3 engine. Not to mention amssive armies! Now THAT is a Zergling rush.

My only dissapointment? That the Dark Templar's new unit looks so sweet in the concept art and the actual unit bears almost no resemblance (but this is still early and the game could still be prettied up so there's some hope.) That's my one major gripe about awesome concept art not being done justice in the games, usually technical limitations are to blame but Blizzard was getting good at having their concept, 3D assets, and game models looking very similar and not losing the essence of what was portrayed. Let's hope it stays that way.

Oh and flying pylons/ttransport units? Flippin' awesome!


...and now, back to work *sigh*

Almost outta college, finally the moment to say goodbye to these people is at hand. Just gotta push myself a bit more and I'm free!

Gonna update on some small stuff probably, gonna work on my blog and get interesting rants up.

I've started uplaoding a lot of photos as you can see, I'm really liking photography as a hobby. Enough to buy a DSLR (though I definitely won't sell my Minolta SLR anytime soon).

Got new games, the Wii is tons of fun but having a bunch of people playing together is indescribably awesome. More multiplayer please!

Also, my b-day went mostly uncelebrated at the school, but only cuz I hate hypocrites and wanted it that way. If anyone's gonna give me a b-day hug or celebrate my b-day it should be people that actually give a dang about me and not just because they feel obligated. There was an awesome BBQ surprise party the saturday before that and it was a great time, definitely one of the best b-days ever and the best I've had since I arrived here.

Well, in about 2 weeks I'll be completely free thanks to having completed the 240 hours of work we need for school, hopefully the next place I can stay at will actually pay or teach me something new and sueful isntead of droning on with boring chores.

On my path of self discovery I can see that one of the reasons I end up not going through with projects is thinking too big too soon, wanting to have it all at once instead of taking it slow, piece by piece as I should be doing (and I'm trying now).

Got a bunch of things on the way, including hopefully a few decent doodles and attempts at actual coloring unlike the sad little robot. I'll also try to get my hands into 3D as I've been dying to do and this time I'll finally do it. Aside from that... gotta do a lot of cleaning up around the house.

Deviations should hopefully start to flow and I'll do my best to get work up once in a while when I do get back in school. I'm not gonna cut off DA completely, I'm gonna use it as a method to keep my mind fresh with ideas as I watch many wonderful deviations but also attempt to make all sorts of things that I'm normally "too busy" to do ("lazy" would be the proper term).

I can only hope I can make most of what's left of my summer vacations, also gonna work ong etting that drivers license, even if I won't have a car to drive I need a job... or rather, money XD

I'm sure Lore shares this sentiment about a lazy/useless/worthless/annoying/ignorant/selfish and otherwise just plain idiotic person... I FRIGGIN HATE THAT #$%$&!

In our team of 3 for a really big project for a REAL client, this flabby sack of fat has been slowing us down tremendously for the past year and a half and it's finally hit the boiling point. This person shouldn't even be at the 3rd semester of college and somehow because of our help she's almost gonna make it to 7th. I can only hope my teacher realizes this as my teacher has told me that annoying person should be sent back a few semesters to learn the most basic of concepts which she completely lacks. I cannot fathom how someone as dumb and useless made it this far by themselves as they are clearly not cut out for Graphic Design AT ALL...

Normally I like to keep a cool mind and be a nice guy but this person just takes the cake... The wors part is the two of us (Lore and I) have worked so hard and this other person is gonna get an A for free... I'm gonna make sure my teachers don't grade as a group but individually because this is just not fair. Haven't gotten more than 4 hours of sleep a day worrying about all th work we've got to do to compensate for this @%$#& just not working and worse off, weighing us down because we can't depend on her yet we have to give her things to do... never again. This is the last time I'll ever help that bumbling moron whose sole purpose in life other than to make us miserable seems to be trying to find a guy to get laid. Maybe if she actually did that neuron of hers may finally start getting some work done, but until that happens it seems all she can focus on is anime, guys, and sex.

I'm sorry for whoever has to endure her next as I wouldn't wish this stomach-wrenching, stress and no sleep torture on my worse enemies... except maybe on her just so she knows the hell we've been through because of her empty and vain head. She gets a $%#$%& nosejob when what she should be doing, that lazy slob, is working out to get that disgusting flab into shape. She really must have been fat to have all that skin hanging, but maybe she even had surgery for that too or some crazy diet cuz if she could she'd drive her car into the classroom just to not move her feet.

I'd wish her ill but shouldn't, mostly in part because it's my fault she's made it this far, oh the irony of trying to do good and helping and this is what I get in return... I'll still gladly help others, but she's used up her lifetime "get-help-from-me" quota in one semester. I DO hope this idiot soon figures out she's not cut out for this career. Whether she passes the grade or not, I know this: this semester is the last time I talk to her unless I'm FORCED to do so. $#%& you you stupid $%@$#, let's see you handle next semester by yourself cuz you're not getting anymore help.

Quite possibly one of the toughest tests I've had to endure, I just pray to God I make it through alright because I need to be able to finally relax and get some sleep. Next week, the final week when I'm through with her, can't come soon enough.

f@$& you! c#$&@# tu m@#$& estúpida vieja vanidosa que no vale nada!